1/29/23 -

started coding site

1/30/23 -

so fixated on this site. // 10am: stayed home bcus its cold and im probably sick. might be ice tonite. // 3pm: oh shit schools closed tomorrow and i get to sleep in fuck yeah. // 11pm: tired now

1/31/23 -

8am: it snowed. // 11am: i wish i had more friends // 9pm: got damn my visual snow really makes everything blur together in the dark. could barely walk up the stairs bro.

2/1/23 -

10pm: i like seeing people online being happy. i wish i can be that happy some day. anyways, still icy outside n schools still closed thankfully.

2/2/23 -

2am: getting tireed naow.. // 9pm: im gonna be real, i didnt do shit today lol. im chillin. didnt go to school at all this week.

2/18/23 -

5pm: forgot about this lil page.

4/1/23 -

3pm: day of the fool :^)

4/5/23 -

i remembered windows 11 exists. fuck windows 11 im never updating windows 10. eat my ass microsoft

4/12/23 -

i got strep throat and am seeing a doctor tomorrow (on.. the cursed day)

4/22/23 -

i need friends!!! im so lonely please!!! i want to talk and hug and play!!! please!!!!!

4/23/23 -

just realized ive been forgetting timestamps on recent entries. ah whatevs.

5/1/23 -

shout out to slipstream fr. unfathomably based. i cant believe an autistic queer w a mommy kink hacked microsoft and nintendo. idol.

5/3/23 -

my roflcopter goes swa swa swa swa... new verbal stim / also i passed my comptia core 2 exam last night. im the 1st in my class to pass a core exam ^w^

5/17/23 -

hey im 18 now ^_^ old enough to do taxes and look at porn // also gota new laptop bcus the police called and made me return my old school's laptop lol :3 // also also, i passed me comptia 1 exam retake, so im the only one in class w an A+ certification ^_^

5/27/23 -

oh yeah i'm a high school graduate now. didn't go to the ceremony tho (too boring)

5/29/23 -

i am filled with HOPE! I WILL find a safer, comfortable home! I WILL make so many friends who care about me! I WILL get better at communication and overcome anxiety! life can suck my cock, I AM A WINNER! I WILL NOT GIVE UP!!!

5/30/23 -

i may be becoming an owl. i cant stop saying 'anywho' instead of 'anyway' lol. // anywho, ... i switched tabs and forgot what i was gonna say...

6/1/23 -

happy pride!!! to celebrate, i WILL finish this fuckin site by the end of june! i can DO IT!!!

6/8/23 -

late nite ramble. it's getting hard again. i'm trying to stay happy and carefree, but it's just harder and harder to ignore the world. loneliness doesn't help either, i keep blaming myself for it. i don't want to be alone. i want to be loved. i want to be wanted.

6/9/23 -

colorado seems like a good place to live. it's probably my best shot at least. i just wanna get outta texas, please.

6/15/23 -

ouuughhhh i feel a metal gear hyperfixation coming on. is my hlvrai hyperfix finally coming to an end after 3 years? maybe i'll just be incredibly autistic about both lol

6/20/23 -

god i just spent like 2-3 hours making the marquee actually work. i had no idea the marquee tag had deprecated lol, so i used css to help recreate it. now i have to copy it onto every page again. why did i do this...

6/24/23 -

my morbid curiosity got the best of me again. i read some things and now i'll never look at power rangers the same again ._.

6/25/23 -

rules of nature fucks so hard god damn. i cant wait 2 play metal gear rising // dear god i fucking hate global warming. non-stop triple digit heat down here. i think i'll just melt if i go outside.

7/2/23 -

looks like i couldn't finish before the end of pride month. i was too busy reading up on metal gear lore and crying over it. autism moment tbh.

7/5/23 -

yeah im changing my plushie shrine to a pokemon shrine lol. i have too many plushies and i am not gonna look 4 pics of all of them. rip plush paradise o7